Moving Towards A New Phase

It occurred to me that I am no longer an obsessive writer as I used to be.. I don’t even know whether I should pursue this or not, but for the sake of historic moments in my life, I think it would be better to write things down a bit. I do wish no one reads it, but I am writing here, so there is probability that anyone in the world could read it. Damn. Why life should always be hard? Hahaha..

To start things off, my family is a very traditional one. No. Don’t even compare to the ones saying their daughters should not go out at nights. I am saying a thousand more times traditional and conservative than that. My family still does the whole ‘match marriage’ until this day! Everyone in the family went through this tradition; even my two elder brothers.

Yup, as you are going to ask, whether I am going to follow this rule or not, I would proudly say, YES. So, last Sunday, my grandmother (I love her!) slowly came to me and asked whether I am ready to get married? Speaking of straightforward. Haha.. For your information too, I am (I think) one of the few members in the family (which by the way is really huge) who have good relations with everyone, as I don’t usually make a scene and help and keep good relations with everyone. So, searching for my ‘other half’ is really interesting as everyone wants to have a say and want to search the so-called ‘prefect’ girl for me.

Getting back to my grandmother story, my parents actually had asked me a few days before and asked me to think about it. I didn’t think quite much about it. And when grandma asked, I thought, here is the moment. Everyone was looking at me and I was still watching ‘Biggest Loser’ in TV! I didn’t expect it, as it happened too fast. After much consideration, I made a slight nod saying that I agree with whatever decision that they are going to make.

That was more than enough for everyone! Suddenly all my niece, my brothers, sister and sister-in-laws were happy that they were even giving out chocolates for one another. My grandma took sugar from the kitchen and poured some in my mouth. It was a blessing from her and saying gratitude because I had agreed with the process and the tradition that we are following for hundreds of years. The ‘ground works’ are already starting headed by my grandma, my mother and all relatives contributing throughout the process, here and there.

And you have to understand that this is happening even though I had never seen ‘my future wife’. They kindda said her name, but I didn’t remember it.

Some may find this difficult to understand and believe. Try putting your legs in my shoes, you will be horrified. However, it is for the best of me and my future generation that I stand by my own traditions, if not, who else will? I know that my family wants the best for me and they will do anything in their power to achieve that.

I, on the other hand, have to pray to God, that this process will be blessed and have His guidance. I don’t think I had done a great job in the first phase of my life. I wish I will be a better person, and do more for everyone. Each and everyone of you are always in my mind. Please pray for my success and pray for my health. And please pray that I will sail into the next phase smoothly.

Your nor so perfect friend/stranger,
AZMI KHAN
a.k.a
JIMMY